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This is a personal account of a ghost story that occured over 10 years ago.
This "true experince" firml supported my theory that our departed loved ones can convey messages through dreams.

Back in 1989, being a fresh graduate Psychology graduate, I landed a job in
the personnel department in one of the goverment offices in Quezon City. A male co-worker, Jun, was 11 years older than me. He became one of my friends while working there. Jun was king, loving, and romantic. He was the breadwinner of his family. His parents ang relatives liked me a lot. Being single and unattached, he courted me in 1990. I accepted his marraige proposal during the latter part of that year.

My parents did not approve of our relationship and when the first quarter of 1991 came, my parents made me quit my job. My dad, being a military man, even threatened Jun to Jun to stay away from me. To make our long story short, I left my job. I lost track of Jun I bussied myself with the family business. Basically, I went on with my life and tried to forget about him.

On the morning of June 2, 1994 I recieved a telegram from his aunt, saying that Jun had died the day before June1, 1994. Shocked I crumpled the short note and hurriedly phoned his aunt for confirmation. She told me that when we parted, Jun resigned from his job and drunk heavily each day. He naglected his death as well as his body. Pneumonia had caused his sudden death. "You know Jun. Everyday and up to his remaining hours, all her wanted was to see you. During his final moments, while suffering from delirium, he even told us that he still loves you very much," Jun's aunt said.

Sadly, my parents wouldn't allow me to go to his wake. I mourned quietly inside my room. There even came a point where I convinced myself that he wasn't dead.

On January 1995, just before my birthday, Jun visited me in a dream. I dreamed that I was inside a hospital room. I was wearing a hospital gown and I was sitting at the foot of my bed. Jun suddenly appeared before me, clothed in bright lights. We communicated mentally. I told him it wasn't true that he was gone. He replied that I must accept the fact that he was already dead but it didn't mean that he as leaving me. "I will always be beside you, gaurding you," he said

I cried saying, "I'm sorry I didn't have the guts to fight for our relationship."

He comforted me and soothed me by shrouding me with his bright light. The bliss I felt was interrupted by voice calling hi name "It's time for me to go," he told me. "But what about me?" I asked, tears in my eyes. " I will be here for you always," he replied,"and I will be waiting for you there. And don't ever forget that love you very much."

After saying this, he vanished before my eyes. I woke up crying. After this accident, I finished began to accept his death. And whenever I'm depressed I feel his presence beside me I know somehow out there he's still waiting patienly for me.

A person born under Libra horoscope love the concept of being loved, therefore are constantly searching for the perfect mate.Libras love romance and consequently are good at it. Filled with personal dignity and elegance, you may find Libras to dazzle and captivate you time and time again.

They have many interests like theater, antiques, decorating, art, and themselves. A person born with the Libra Sign best quality is the art of conversation. They are fantastic conversationalists. Although, when discussing any subject, you may find the conversation leading back toward their favorite topic of interest, as they put a little bit about themselves into each conversation, placing the spotlight exactly where they want it.

When out on a date with a Libra be sure to pay them a compliment. If it's sincere, they will most definitely be charmed by you. If you pick out a restaurant, make certain the atmosphere is classy and don't skimp on any of your plans. Libras want to be treated as first class and does not like to settle for less, as they feel that their pleasure is well worth it. They want a partner that has good taste and quality. As they adore luxury and love to be pampered, impression will get you everywhere, so go all out, and don't hold back.

With an easy going nature, you will find a person with Libra Horoscope pleasant to be around. This zodiac sign of partnership needs a companion who will understand, appreciate, and perhaps even idolize them. If you're searching for a partner that is socially outgoing and affectionate, you've found them. People born under Libra horoscope love to go to parties and enjoy a glittering extravagant social life.

Although a Libra may be indecisive about making a commitment, once committed to a relationship, you will find harmony and peace with them.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind.

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.

There's no use looking back or wondering.

How it could be now or might have been.

All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go.

I never had a dream come true until the day that I found you.

Even though I pretend that I've moved  but you always be my love.

I never found the words to say,you're the one I think about each day.

And I know no matter where life takes me to.

A part of me will always be with you.

Somewhere in my memory,I've lost all sense of time.

And tommorow can never be cause yesterday is all that fills my mind.

You'll always be the dream that fills my head.

Yes you will, say you will…I know you will.

You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget.

It's no use looking back or wondering.

Because love is a strange and funny thing.

…No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye…

Kitten Dance...?

I had been freezing  for more than a week, so much snow it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy.He called and said he was coming up. It was the third time he came up to see me that week. I know that he is coming for visiting me....carried her excuse of why he came all the way here and went to meet me at the nearby park.He was standing there alone with the wet cloth.No more car after his promise to me. It was snow and he was "shivering".He looked pale and fragile in the harsh snow,that clothes not enough to keep her warm.I walked up to him and said, "You shouldn't come see me."And what I hear was "I miss you."Something that made me stop thinking.... right away I answered with my blushing look.... then he.....fainted in my arm.A splash of drinking water that I bought had wake him up.Willingly I take him home,we were walking along the side of the road.I were in his arm beside of me and my umbrella.He looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times,he was too into thinking or whatever he was doing, drifting off the road, he almost got hit by the cars passing by.But with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.

CINTA TU GILA!!!!

Kali pertama aku jumpa dia,aku terus jatuh cinta kat dia...orangnya `agak' hensem plus lawak.Dia sekelas ngan aku so selalu tiap minggu jumpa.Yang bestnya dia ni senang dikawan dan berkawan,kadang2 dia hai kat aq...best jugak la time tu....Setiap kali dia duduk tepi aku ...rasa cam ada sesuatu yang tak boleh aku ungkapkan.Suatu hari tu kami dua gaduh,aku tak sangka dia percaya cakap orang lain yang mngatakan aku cakap yang bukan2 pasai dia.Mula2 aku mintak maaf kat dia..tapi dia plak yang marah kat aku.

(BERSAMBUNG)